"When I recall my past, I realize that I have a history of making prompt decisions when it comes to girls, either being friend with her or fall for her. I have always fallen in love with them without measuring potential risks and outcomes.
It's just because it's been my tendency to assume that everyone I meet is emotionally and mentally capable of giving their best rather than seeing and assessing what's best in them. I have fallen in love more than I can count not for the girl herself but on my assumption of her giving her best in the relationship. At the same time, I have hung on to certain relations for a long time, sometimes far too long, waiting for her to ascend to her own greatness. Many a times I have been a victim of my own optimism when it comes to relations with girls.
But finally I realized that no matter what you do, how you look like, most of the girls you will meet wont be worth it. Its not that they are bad, but its just that they have their own priorities, their own decisions, their own favorites due to which they wither ignore you or keep you as a back up option which is quite obvious. They might talk to you as if they know you for years, discuss their life, your life and even call you one of their best friends. But after a time, things changes and the long hour talks are reduced to minutes and then silence. That is when one should realize if hanging onto the relation is fruitful or not. I, in the past, have taken wrong decision, most of time at this moment, hanging onto them and finally getting hurt.
Though I repeated such instances on a constant basis but finally I can say that I have learned from my past. Though it was hard to change from a desperate guy, looking for attention from female community, trying to make an impression on them (a good one which usually ended up as a bad one). My decisions have become more mature, clear, and thoughtful than they used to be couple of years ago. I am still in the learning phase as everyone is different and who knows one odd day you might face a new and different scenario altogether."
July 5, 2013
I didn’t expected this day to come over or at least any day sooner but as we all know, life is full of surprises and shocks. I have finally decided to quit writing in the future and this will be my last attempt at it, as of now and I hope I will make this last one count.
It’s been 23 years (will be 23 this month), I’ve been in this world and the journey has been no less than a roller coaster ride. Well, I won’t be writing down all that history here but would like to mention my journey for last one year.
It’s been a year since I came in the literature fraternity, as a reader of course and very soon became an integral part of it. My journey took a beautiful turn when I turned into a publisher. Ina field where everyone dreams to be an author, I took an extra step and risk and started a publishing venture. It was a dream come true, standing at a place where people look up to you. But as I came up in this journey, I learned that there are more people who want you to fail compared to those who appreciate your success. I got over them and everyone else who didn’t like me because I just can’t please everyone.
During this time, I met some people, to be exact some wonderful, beautiful and exquisite people who held my hand, listened to me and talked to me all this while. It was them who helped me took important decisions and made me what I am today. I won’t be writing any specific names because unknowingly I may miss few names and this will be become more of a controversial post for me. I was in a relationship for a short span of time which gave me numerous beautiful memories and I don’t regret a moment but unluckily I had to let it go.
Coming back to the present, I am quite happy yet not satisfied with my life. It seems like something is missing; something important. I am still trying to figure it out that what’s lacking that could make my life perfect. But that’s the point I think; you need to have something missing in your life for which you crave, you fight day and night just to have it. Or else we won’t realize the worth living.
For now, I have decided to quit writing for undecided span as I too am not sure when will I be back; will I be back or not. So this is it from my side.
#Thanks #AuRevoir #Aloha #AloneYetAlive