Those nights where you toss and turn in bed trying to fall asleep, but your mind wont allow you. You just lay there and think. You think about every single possible thing that is going on in your life. You think of friends, your family, your problems, your feelings and your worries. Or maybe you dont and you end up just reminiscing about the past. About the people who walked out on you, who impacted your life, who disappeared on you, and who changed the way you are. In those moments where you cant fall asleep, thats when you do all of your thinking and you know what? Its scary.
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You asked me what was wrong and I said "nothing". Then you turned around and walked away and as the tears came down, all I could whisper wiping it out was "everything." only question I wanted to ask was did you ever realized what you were to me? What you're always going to be? You were the best thing that could have happened to me and everyone else will always be second best. There will never be another of you.
And now when everything seems to be over I'm mad at myself, not you. I'm mad for always being nice, always apologizing for things I didn't do, for getting attached, for depending on you, thinking about you, following you, changing for you, forgiving you, wishing for you, dreaming of you, and most of all for expecting that you would be mine. But as long as I still feel something, it's not over, and believe me, some time’s I wish it was, but it's not. I can feel it. At times I act like shit don't phase me but the truth is inside it drives me crazy. For the longest time I was just trying to make you love me as much as I loved you, but now I realize that’s never going to happen. And now the only way I think can help me let go is by hurting each other so much that we have no choice but to let go. Maybe otherwise we never would.
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Sometimes I feel like if I open my mouth I'll start speaking non sense. I'll start admitting things that no one should know. I only wish for everyone to know my secrets, for everyone to know all the monsters that tears within my insides, crawling out wishing to escape. Maybe if they knew, they would understand, maybe they would care.
Those days, when I feel like I cant contain anything inside me, I sleep. I sleep so I wont say something that most will be never comprehend. I sleep to escape into a thoughtless worlds where she loves me, where she is still my friend. I wish to scream to the world, out my window, in the parking lot, on the road. I wish to scream, "I am here and I am not alone."
But some days that is all fear. I fear of being alone, I fever of never finding someone to stay around and appreciate every ounce of my being, I fear of never finding love. I just wish I could get something right, just once. I just wish I could leave everything and love somewhere with the one I love. No problems, no money issue, no work, just love holding us together...forever...
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True friends are like tears... They appear out of nowhere when you are low and sad.
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As I stand alone, walls on all sides on the hardness and trials,
I will stand tall, as tall as I might, for all of my humble little life.
Til the world tramples me, and I am no more,
I will stand tall as tall as I might.
Always reaching for the sun.
Even though all around is brokenness and pain,
I'll lend my brief beauty and stand tall as tall as I might.
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Its not the moment when you realize that you should finally move on, its the moment when you act upon it and move on that is important. Most of the people are quick to realize that they should move on but they fail to gather enought courage to do and end up hurting themselves again and again...
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At times we meet people who become part of our life so easily, like colors mixes in water & changing it completely. These people are no less than colors, mixing even with your tears and changing them to smile on your face..
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“You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She's not perfect - you aren't either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don't hurt her, don't change her, don't analyze and don't expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she's not there.”
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"I do not exist to impress the world. I exist to live my life in a way that will make me happy. Being alone doesn't mean we have to be sad and feel lonely most of the time. Instead, make that time as our precious time, to meditate, to evaluate yourself, to analyze what's going on around us. To trace the path we want to go, to figure out the things we want to do, and to improve our abilities and skills with our own. So, never be desperate when we are alone, but give it value and use it for yourself, to finalize what you really want. Like it is said that it is wiser to be alone & happy, than to be with somebody who does nothing, while you do everything for them."
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"The only thing that I did wrong was to do everything that you ever asked for. I just wished that you could have done the same for me."
It happens to people, at times, when they grow up & meet new people; you start to understand things the way they are. And eventually you realize that people you've known forever don't see the things the way you do, nor they try to see it or understand it. All you are left with is the option of keeping the beautiful memories and move on in life.
It's then you understand the true meaning of Life. The lessons taught to us from time to time. There are things in life that we don't want to happen but in the end those things happen and we have to accept them. There are things we do not want to know about but we end up learning them and one of the most important lesson that is taught to us is there are people in our lives we can't live without but eventually we have to let go of them.
Sometimes you just have to remind yourself that it will all be okay, maybe not now, maybe not tomorrow, but one day. You will have to remind yourself of the fact that the things and people around you have changed and you are left with no option other than letting go and move on. Yes, its going to be a hard decision and you're gonna feel alone, lonely, in pain, hurt but just hold on to it for a while because that's what is good for you and who knows tomorrow might turn out to be the bestest day of your life?
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“You must make a decision that you are going to move on. It wont happen automatically. You will have to rise up and say, ‘I don’t care how hard this is, I don’t care how disappointed I am, I’m not going to let this get the best of me. I’m moving on with my life.”
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"...to let go isn't to forget, not to think about, or ignore. It doesn't leave feelings of anger, jealously, or regret. Letting go isn't about winning or losing. Its no about pride and its now about how you appear, and its not about obsessing or dwelling on the past. Letting go isn't about blocking memories or thinking that sad thoughts, and it doesn't leave emptiness, hurt or sadness. Its not about giving in or giving up. Letting go isn't about loss and its not about defeat. To let go is to cherish the memories, but to also overcome them and move on. It is having an open mind and confidence in the future. Letting go is learning and experiencing and growing. To let go is to be thankful for the experiences that made you laugh, that made you cry, and made you grow. Its about all that you will soon gain. Letting go is having the courage to accept change, and the strength to keep moving. Letting go is growing up."
#Letting Go #Alone But Happy
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What if our pillow could collect our dreams and when we wake up, we can plug it into our computer and watch them over again... #Wondering
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You know that feeling when you are just waiting to stick home, into your room, shut the door, fall into bed. Just letting everything out that you went through all day. That feeling of despair. You are tired; tired of everything that goes around you; tired of nothing. You just want someone to be there for you, talk to you, listen to you and care for you. You know you have to be strong for yourself, because no one can make you. But you are tired, tired of being strong. For once you just want it to be comfortable, to be easy, to be helped, to be saved. But you know you won't be. But you are still hoping, still wishing and you are staying strong and fighting with the tears in your eyes. You are fighting.
#Alone Yet Alive
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"Getting hurt changed me; changed my perspective. I've moved on, in a way. Some things have fallen into place that were not there before. I thought they were, but they weren't. The best way I can put it is that I have sort of caught up with myself. That's not a bad thing. It was overdue."
- Cormac McCarthy #Alone Yet Alive
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"People change; even the person we think we knew the most changes. And even though it hurts to see them go, we have to move on for the memories as that's what all we have and things might never be the same again."
#Alone Yet Alive
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"The only thing that I did wrong was to do everything that you ever asked for. I just wished that you could have done the same for me." It happens to people, at times, when they grow up & meet new people; you start to understand things the way they are. And eventually you realize that people you've known forever don't see the things the way you do, nor they try to see it or understand it. All you are left with is the option of keeping the beautiful memories and move on in life. It's then you understand the true meaning of Life. The lessons taught to us from time to time. There are things in life that we don't want to happen but in the end those things happen and we have to accept them. There are things we do not want to know about but we end up learning them and one of the most important lesson that is taught to us is there are people in our lives we can't live without but eventually we have to let go of them. Sometimes you just have to remind yourself that it will all be okay, maybe not now, maybe not tomorrow, but one day. You will have to remind yourself of the fact that the things and people around you have changed and you are left with no option other than letting go and move on. Yes, its going to be a hard decision and you're gonna feel alone, lonely, in pain, hurt but just hold on to it for a while because that's what is good for you and who knows tomorrow might turn out to be the bestest day of your life?
#Alone Yet Alive #Ammu
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Did you ever fall for someone you know you shouldn't? Try hard to fight your feelings but you couldn't? She is only a friend, and nothing else, that's the lie you keep telling yourself. A simple glance turns into a stare, but you pretend that you don't care. It's not right for you two to be; is that why you hide it so that no one could see?
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May be I should start pretending like nothing happened between us. I mean since it was so easy for you, how hard it could be for me?
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“Allow yourself to think only those thoughts that match your principles and can bear the bright light of day. Day by day, your choices, your thoughts, your actions fashion the person you become. Your integrity determines your destiny.” ― #Heraclitus #Good Morning
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I close my eyes and feelings flood through my veins, my tears fall creating wounds on my skin, bleeding the pain of this impossible love, because when I scream your name there is no answer, only the silence of the waves and the echo of my voice. For the many wounds caused by these tears I cry endlessly to show you that I cared you, I care you and will always care you. #Alone Yet Alive #Anonymous
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“Grief can destroy you --or focus you. You can decide a relationship was all for nothing if it had to end in death, and you alone. OR you can realize that every moment of it had more meaning than you dared to recognize at the time, so much meaning it scared you, so you just lived, just took for granted the love and laughter of each day, and didn't allow yourself to consider the sacredness of it. But when it's over and you're alone, you begin to see that it wasn't just a movie and a dinner together, not just watching sunsets together, not just scrubbing a floor or washing dishes together or worrying over a high electric bill. It was everything, it was the why of life, every event and precious moment of it. The answer to the mystery of existence is the love you shared sometimes so imperfectly, and when the loss wakes you to the deeper beauty of it, to the sanctity of it, you can't get off your knees for a long time, you're driven to your knees not by the weight of the loss but by gratitude for what preceded the loss. And the ache is always there, but one day not the emptiness, because to nurture the emptiness, to take solace in it, is to disrespect the gift of life.” ― Dean Koontz, Odd Hours
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I am very sorry that I offended you Its the last thing I wanted to do It was really quite insensitive of me And now I want to say I am sorry... I know at times we don't agree But to hold a grudge would be silly I want you to know I now feel humble And accept my responsibility Without any Grumble... Guilt is a baggage no one wants around So lets make things between us sound This message can be like an olive branch for us Meant from the heart without any fuss... Next time I see you, I'll be glad I apologized to you and didn't stayed mad Life is too short for any animosity I hope you will accept my apology...
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You know that feeling? When you are just waiting. Waiting to get home, into your room, close the door, fall into bed, and just let everything out that you kept in all day. That feeling of both relief and desperation . Nothing is wrong. But nothing is right either. And I am tired. Tired of everything, tired of nothing. And I just want someone to be there and tell me it's okay. But no one is going to be there. And I know I have to be strong for myself, because no one can fix me. But I am tired of waiting. Tired of having to be the one to fix myself and everyone else. Tired of being strong. And for once, I just want it to be easy. To be simple. To be helped. To be saved. But I know I wont be. But I am still hoping... And I am still wishing... And I am still staying strong and fighting, with tears in my eyes. I AM FIGHTING...
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People talk. People lie. People cheat. people change their ways. People do stupid things. People walk out of your life. People hurt you. People make you. People break you. People heal you. People save you. Life happens, and there is absolutely nothing you can do about any of it.
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“Politeness is okay, but it gets old and boring. You want to attack life with a passion, not a politeness. You want people to think about you and remember you and say "He is so passionate" you don't want people to think about you and remember you and say "he is so polite," because, who cares about polite?”
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If any person that you give your time, effort, and energy to, doesn't act like they appreciate you, they don't deserve for you to give your time, effort and energy to them. Don't be bothered with those who wont receive from you. As in the parable of the sower, there are just some people who will never allow for him or her to receive any thing from anyone else. Some soil or people will never be able to let go and humble their selves enough to receive anything from any person, including you. Don't get discouraged, because there are many others who need help as well. Sometimes we may be able to effectively inspire a whole nation of people that we aren't close to, but not be able to touch who needs it the most and is closest to us. This is just how life works in some instances. We have to choose to let go of the things in life that are slowing our progression and the progression of the people who we are missing out on blessing.
#Read Somewhere...
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Do I get Jealous? Yes! Do I cry randomly? Yes! Do I get angry? Yes! Do I get hungry & thirsty? Yes! Do I fight? Yes! Do I cry myself to sleep? Yes! Do I miss you every second you're gone? Yes! Do I feel lonely at times? Yes! Do I need you? Yes! Do I need someone to talk to? Yes! Do I like to be left alone sometimes? Yes! Do I need daily hugs? Yes! Do I love someone? Yes! Do I have feelings? Yes! Do I get hurt? Yes! Yes! I am a normal human being and all this tends to happen with me. :)
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Some people really don't know appreciating others for their work or they don't want to appreciate others work. Met a guy couple of months ago, whom I helped at every stage, making sure that whatever he has dreamt of comes true. Did most of his work, solved major issues, gave crucial advices & suggestions and in the end when everything was done, the jerk stopped talking to me, forget about appreciating the work I did. And today he is presenting the those things giving himself the whole credit. I didn't wanted to say all this but after a while you get angry & frustrated on the decision you took to help that person, watching that people here dont care about you. All they want is to get their work done and leave. In the end all I am doing is promising myself not to help anyone else again.
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One of the worst things that you could ever do to someone is cheating them. If you are not happy with whom you are with then fucking leave them. There isn’t a use staying around when you don’t feel the same way anymore. Don’t think about how much you ate going to hurt them, of course it’s going to hurt them. But cheating on them would be worse than breaking up with them. By breaking up with them you are giving them time, time to get over you. By staying around just because you don’t want to cause them pain will just give them false hope. Causing them even more pain. As each day does go by, you are only making them suffer more and more as they fall for you even harder as each day goes by. If you are not happy, then leave. It is as simple as that. There is no excuse for cheating on someone. If you did it, then you did it. The End. So, leave while they are still capable of going on without you. Don’t leave it too late. You never know what could happen to them if you have been there for them too long. They start to lean on you; you become a part of them. They make you everything and once you leave, they will be left without anything. So leave, while they still have something...
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Yea I have a disorder. Its called SELECTIVE HEARING! Its caused by listening to much shit from fake ass people.
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How strange life is... It can make a strong person so weak. with pains and sufferings that he finally gives it away OR with the same magnitude of pain life makes a weak person strong enough to face them and move on with his life...
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No matter what, once in you life, someone will hurt you. That someone will take all that you are, and rip it into pieces and they won't watch where the pieces land. But through the breakdown, you'll learn something about yourself. You'll learn that you're strong. And no matter how hard they destroy you, that you can conquer anyone...
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"All that is gold does not glitter, Not all those who wander are lost; The old that is strong does not wither, Deep roots are not reached by the frost. From the ashes a fire shall be woken, A light from the shadows shall spring; Renewed shall be blade that was broken: The crown-less shall again be the King... P.S. Not my creation...
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Many people, other than the authors, contribute to the making of a book. From the first person who had the bright idea of alphabetic writing through the inventor of movable type to the lumberjacks who felled the trees that were pulped for its printing. It is not customary to acknowledge the trees themselves, though their commitment is total.
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What an astonishing thing a book is, It's flat object made from a tree with flexible parts on which are imprinted lots of funny, romantic and many more thoughts scribbled by the writer. But one glance at it and you're inside the mind of another person; a person who might have not born or existed or the person who died thousands of years ago. And then for years, an author connects to you and speaks to you in your head, directly to you. Writing is perhaps the greatest human inventions, binding together people who never know each other, citizens of distant epochs, lands and mindsets. Books break the shackles of time and it is a proof that humans are capable enough to create something extraordinary and magical. Happy World Books Day to you all. Write One, Read One, Share One and see how beautiful life is...
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A Paragraph from "The Other Side of the Bed" - A Novel by Bhavya Kaushik. Couldn't get this out of my head. What's your say on it. "When a wife loses her husband, they call her a widow. And when somebody's parents die, they call him an orphan. But there is no name for a parent, a grieving mother, or a devastated father who have lost their child. because the pain behind that loss is so unmeasurable and unbearable, that is cannot be described in one word. It just cannot be described. Every night, I ask myself-why him, and who not me? i was supposed to die first. Every night I cry myself to sleep," She added.
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Just another night A gloomy, gloomy night, Where your life became that sad song, And you've given up acting strong, As you stare at that familiar ceiling, And the tears roll down your face... Sticky and silently; Not bothering to wipe them away Tears that make no sense to you And have no reason to come... And when that night passes That gloomy, gloomy night, You're back again... With a store-bought smile, Plastered to your icy face, And a genuine and happy laugh, That never ever came...
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Its another sleepless night, laying here thinking about you. As I toss and turn, I lay here and wonder where you are. With my eyes wide open, looking up at the ceiling. I begin to wonder and hope that you might be thinking of me wherever you are. That you might miss me, as I am missing you. Praying that the good Lord will take mercy on us, and protect all those that we love. Wondering about our future, and our undying love. And loving and missing someone that's hundreds of miles away. All of these running through my mind, causing another sleepless night. Hoping one day everything will be fine and finally end all my sleepless nights. But until then its just another one of my sleepless nights, and missing you with all my might.
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What will it take, To make you see, And believe, I won't leave you, No matter what, I will tell you, Straight from my heart, I want a forever, With you, To hold you, When you're days are harsh, I'm telling you, Straight from my heart and soul, That I'll never leave you.
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"I am not here because of the motivational & emotional support of people close to me; they are few. I am here mainly because of the people who considered me nothing, who abandoned me at desperate times, cheated me and used me for their betterment. I thank them for teaching me what life is all about and making me believe that doesn't matter what life throws at you, you will always have the choice, no matter how impossible it sounds."
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Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets. So, love the people who treat you right and forget about the ones who don't. And believe that everything happens for a reason... If you get a chance - take it; if it changes your life - let it. Nobody said that it would be easy... They just promised it would be worth it....
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"Letting go is not an option. It's more of a need. Sometimes you just can't stick to memories & people you love. At some point of time you have to take the hard decision of letting all that go."
#New Road Taken
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“There are only so many times that you can utter ‘It does not hurt’ before it begins to hurt even more than the hurt. You become enlightened of the feeling of feeling hurt, which is worse, I am certain, than the existent hurt.”
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You asked me what was wrong and I said "nothing". Then you turned around and walked away and as the tears came down, all I could whisper wiping it out was "everything." only question I wanted to ask was did you ever realized what you were to me? What you're always going to be? You were the best thing that could have happened to me and everyone else will always be second best. There will never be another of you.
And now when everything seems to be over I'm mad at myself, not you. I'm mad for always being nice, always apologizing for things I didn't do, for getting attached, for depending on you, thinking about you, following you, changing for you, forgiving you, wishing for you, dreaming of you, and most of all for expecting that you would be mine. But as long as I still feel something, it's not over, and believe me, some time’s I wish it was, but it's not. I can feel it. At times I act like shit don't phase me but the truth is inside it drives me crazy. For the longest time I was just trying to make you love me as much as I loved you, but now I realize that’s never going to happen. And now the only way I think can help me let go is by hurting each other so much that we have no choice but to let go. Maybe otherwise we never would.
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Sometimes I feel like if I open my mouth I'll start speaking non sense. I'll start admitting things that no one should know. I only wish for everyone to know my secrets, for everyone to know all the monsters that tears within my insides, crawling out wishing to escape. Maybe if they knew, they would understand, maybe they would care.
Those days, when I feel like I cant contain anything inside me, I sleep. I sleep so I wont say something that most will be never comprehend. I sleep to escape into a thoughtless worlds where she loves me, where she is still my friend. I wish to scream to the world, out my window, in the parking lot, on the road. I wish to scream, "I am here and I am not alone."
But some days that is all fear. I fear of being alone, I fever of never finding someone to stay around and appreciate every ounce of my being, I fear of never finding love. I just wish I could get something right, just once. I just wish I could leave everything and love somewhere with the one I love. No problems, no money issue, no work, just love holding us together...forever...
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True friends are like tears... They appear out of nowhere when you are low and sad.
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As I stand alone, walls on all sides on the hardness and trials,
I will stand tall, as tall as I might, for all of my humble little life.
Til the world tramples me, and I am no more,
I will stand tall as tall as I might.
Always reaching for the sun.
Even though all around is brokenness and pain,
I'll lend my brief beauty and stand tall as tall as I might.
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Its not the moment when you realize that you should finally move on, its the moment when you act upon it and move on that is important. Most of the people are quick to realize that they should move on but they fail to gather enought courage to do and end up hurting themselves again and again...
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At times we meet people who become part of our life so easily, like colors mixes in water & changing it completely. These people are no less than colors, mixing even with your tears and changing them to smile on your face..
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“You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She's not perfect - you aren't either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don't hurt her, don't change her, don't analyze and don't expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she's not there.”
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"I do not exist to impress the world. I exist to live my life in a way that will make me happy. Being alone doesn't mean we have to be sad and feel lonely most of the time. Instead, make that time as our precious time, to meditate, to evaluate yourself, to analyze what's going on around us. To trace the path we want to go, to figure out the things we want to do, and to improve our abilities and skills with our own. So, never be desperate when we are alone, but give it value and use it for yourself, to finalize what you really want. Like it is said that it is wiser to be alone & happy, than to be with somebody who does nothing, while you do everything for them."
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"The only thing that I did wrong was to do everything that you ever asked for. I just wished that you could have done the same for me."
It happens to people, at times, when they grow up & meet new people; you start to understand things the way they are. And eventually you realize that people you've known forever don't see the things the way you do, nor they try to see it or understand it. All you are left with is the option of keeping the beautiful memories and move on in life.
It's then you understand the true meaning of Life. The lessons taught to us from time to time. There are things in life that we don't want to happen but in the end those things happen and we have to accept them. There are things we do not want to know about but we end up learning them and one of the most important lesson that is taught to us is there are people in our lives we can't live without but eventually we have to let go of them.
Sometimes you just have to remind yourself that it will all be okay, maybe not now, maybe not tomorrow, but one day. You will have to remind yourself of the fact that the things and people around you have changed and you are left with no option other than letting go and move on. Yes, its going to be a hard decision and you're gonna feel alone, lonely, in pain, hurt but just hold on to it for a while because that's what is good for you and who knows tomorrow might turn out to be the bestest day of your life?
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“You must make a decision that you are going to move on. It wont happen automatically. You will have to rise up and say, ‘I don’t care how hard this is, I don’t care how disappointed I am, I’m not going to let this get the best of me. I’m moving on with my life.”
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"...to let go isn't to forget, not to think about, or ignore. It doesn't leave feelings of anger, jealously, or regret. Letting go isn't about winning or losing. Its no about pride and its now about how you appear, and its not about obsessing or dwelling on the past. Letting go isn't about blocking memories or thinking that sad thoughts, and it doesn't leave emptiness, hurt or sadness. Its not about giving in or giving up. Letting go isn't about loss and its not about defeat. To let go is to cherish the memories, but to also overcome them and move on. It is having an open mind and confidence in the future. Letting go is learning and experiencing and growing. To let go is to be thankful for the experiences that made you laugh, that made you cry, and made you grow. Its about all that you will soon gain. Letting go is having the courage to accept change, and the strength to keep moving. Letting go is growing up."
#Letting Go #Alone But Happy
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What if our pillow could collect our dreams and when we wake up, we can plug it into our computer and watch them over again... #Wondering
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You know that feeling when you are just waiting to stick home, into your room, shut the door, fall into bed. Just letting everything out that you went through all day. That feeling of despair. You are tired; tired of everything that goes around you; tired of nothing. You just want someone to be there for you, talk to you, listen to you and care for you. You know you have to be strong for yourself, because no one can make you. But you are tired, tired of being strong. For once you just want it to be comfortable, to be easy, to be helped, to be saved. But you know you won't be. But you are still hoping, still wishing and you are staying strong and fighting with the tears in your eyes. You are fighting.
#Alone Yet Alive
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"Getting hurt changed me; changed my perspective. I've moved on, in a way. Some things have fallen into place that were not there before. I thought they were, but they weren't. The best way I can put it is that I have sort of caught up with myself. That's not a bad thing. It was overdue."
- Cormac McCarthy #Alone Yet Alive
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"People change; even the person we think we knew the most changes. And even though it hurts to see them go, we have to move on for the memories as that's what all we have and things might never be the same again."
#Alone Yet Alive
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"The only thing that I did wrong was to do everything that you ever asked for. I just wished that you could have done the same for me." It happens to people, at times, when they grow up & meet new people; you start to understand things the way they are. And eventually you realize that people you've known forever don't see the things the way you do, nor they try to see it or understand it. All you are left with is the option of keeping the beautiful memories and move on in life. It's then you understand the true meaning of Life. The lessons taught to us from time to time. There are things in life that we don't want to happen but in the end those things happen and we have to accept them. There are things we do not want to know about but we end up learning them and one of the most important lesson that is taught to us is there are people in our lives we can't live without but eventually we have to let go of them. Sometimes you just have to remind yourself that it will all be okay, maybe not now, maybe not tomorrow, but one day. You will have to remind yourself of the fact that the things and people around you have changed and you are left with no option other than letting go and move on. Yes, its going to be a hard decision and you're gonna feel alone, lonely, in pain, hurt but just hold on to it for a while because that's what is good for you and who knows tomorrow might turn out to be the bestest day of your life?
#Alone Yet Alive #Ammu
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Did you ever fall for someone you know you shouldn't? Try hard to fight your feelings but you couldn't? She is only a friend, and nothing else, that's the lie you keep telling yourself. A simple glance turns into a stare, but you pretend that you don't care. It's not right for you two to be; is that why you hide it so that no one could see?
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May be I should start pretending like nothing happened between us. I mean since it was so easy for you, how hard it could be for me?
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“Allow yourself to think only those thoughts that match your principles and can bear the bright light of day. Day by day, your choices, your thoughts, your actions fashion the person you become. Your integrity determines your destiny.” ― #Heraclitus #Good Morning
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I close my eyes and feelings flood through my veins, my tears fall creating wounds on my skin, bleeding the pain of this impossible love, because when I scream your name there is no answer, only the silence of the waves and the echo of my voice. For the many wounds caused by these tears I cry endlessly to show you that I cared you, I care you and will always care you. #Alone Yet Alive #Anonymous
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“Grief can destroy you --or focus you. You can decide a relationship was all for nothing if it had to end in death, and you alone. OR you can realize that every moment of it had more meaning than you dared to recognize at the time, so much meaning it scared you, so you just lived, just took for granted the love and laughter of each day, and didn't allow yourself to consider the sacredness of it. But when it's over and you're alone, you begin to see that it wasn't just a movie and a dinner together, not just watching sunsets together, not just scrubbing a floor or washing dishes together or worrying over a high electric bill. It was everything, it was the why of life, every event and precious moment of it. The answer to the mystery of existence is the love you shared sometimes so imperfectly, and when the loss wakes you to the deeper beauty of it, to the sanctity of it, you can't get off your knees for a long time, you're driven to your knees not by the weight of the loss but by gratitude for what preceded the loss. And the ache is always there, but one day not the emptiness, because to nurture the emptiness, to take solace in it, is to disrespect the gift of life.” ― Dean Koontz, Odd Hours
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I am very sorry that I offended you Its the last thing I wanted to do It was really quite insensitive of me And now I want to say I am sorry... I know at times we don't agree But to hold a grudge would be silly I want you to know I now feel humble And accept my responsibility Without any Grumble... Guilt is a baggage no one wants around So lets make things between us sound This message can be like an olive branch for us Meant from the heart without any fuss... Next time I see you, I'll be glad I apologized to you and didn't stayed mad Life is too short for any animosity I hope you will accept my apology...
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You know that feeling? When you are just waiting. Waiting to get home, into your room, close the door, fall into bed, and just let everything out that you kept in all day. That feeling of both relief and desperation . Nothing is wrong. But nothing is right either. And I am tired. Tired of everything, tired of nothing. And I just want someone to be there and tell me it's okay. But no one is going to be there. And I know I have to be strong for myself, because no one can fix me. But I am tired of waiting. Tired of having to be the one to fix myself and everyone else. Tired of being strong. And for once, I just want it to be easy. To be simple. To be helped. To be saved. But I know I wont be. But I am still hoping... And I am still wishing... And I am still staying strong and fighting, with tears in my eyes. I AM FIGHTING...
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People talk. People lie. People cheat. people change their ways. People do stupid things. People walk out of your life. People hurt you. People make you. People break you. People heal you. People save you. Life happens, and there is absolutely nothing you can do about any of it.
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“Politeness is okay, but it gets old and boring. You want to attack life with a passion, not a politeness. You want people to think about you and remember you and say "He is so passionate" you don't want people to think about you and remember you and say "he is so polite," because, who cares about polite?”
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If any person that you give your time, effort, and energy to, doesn't act like they appreciate you, they don't deserve for you to give your time, effort and energy to them. Don't be bothered with those who wont receive from you. As in the parable of the sower, there are just some people who will never allow for him or her to receive any thing from anyone else. Some soil or people will never be able to let go and humble their selves enough to receive anything from any person, including you. Don't get discouraged, because there are many others who need help as well. Sometimes we may be able to effectively inspire a whole nation of people that we aren't close to, but not be able to touch who needs it the most and is closest to us. This is just how life works in some instances. We have to choose to let go of the things in life that are slowing our progression and the progression of the people who we are missing out on blessing.
#Read Somewhere...
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Do I get Jealous? Yes! Do I cry randomly? Yes! Do I get angry? Yes! Do I get hungry & thirsty? Yes! Do I fight? Yes! Do I cry myself to sleep? Yes! Do I miss you every second you're gone? Yes! Do I feel lonely at times? Yes! Do I need you? Yes! Do I need someone to talk to? Yes! Do I like to be left alone sometimes? Yes! Do I need daily hugs? Yes! Do I love someone? Yes! Do I have feelings? Yes! Do I get hurt? Yes! Yes! I am a normal human being and all this tends to happen with me. :)
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Some people really don't know appreciating others for their work or they don't want to appreciate others work. Met a guy couple of months ago, whom I helped at every stage, making sure that whatever he has dreamt of comes true. Did most of his work, solved major issues, gave crucial advices & suggestions and in the end when everything was done, the jerk stopped talking to me, forget about appreciating the work I did. And today he is presenting the those things giving himself the whole credit. I didn't wanted to say all this but after a while you get angry & frustrated on the decision you took to help that person, watching that people here dont care about you. All they want is to get their work done and leave. In the end all I am doing is promising myself not to help anyone else again.
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One of the worst things that you could ever do to someone is cheating them. If you are not happy with whom you are with then fucking leave them. There isn’t a use staying around when you don’t feel the same way anymore. Don’t think about how much you ate going to hurt them, of course it’s going to hurt them. But cheating on them would be worse than breaking up with them. By breaking up with them you are giving them time, time to get over you. By staying around just because you don’t want to cause them pain will just give them false hope. Causing them even more pain. As each day does go by, you are only making them suffer more and more as they fall for you even harder as each day goes by. If you are not happy, then leave. It is as simple as that. There is no excuse for cheating on someone. If you did it, then you did it. The End. So, leave while they are still capable of going on without you. Don’t leave it too late. You never know what could happen to them if you have been there for them too long. They start to lean on you; you become a part of them. They make you everything and once you leave, they will be left without anything. So leave, while they still have something...
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Yea I have a disorder. Its called SELECTIVE HEARING! Its caused by listening to much shit from fake ass people.
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How strange life is... It can make a strong person so weak. with pains and sufferings that he finally gives it away OR with the same magnitude of pain life makes a weak person strong enough to face them and move on with his life...
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No matter what, once in you life, someone will hurt you. That someone will take all that you are, and rip it into pieces and they won't watch where the pieces land. But through the breakdown, you'll learn something about yourself. You'll learn that you're strong. And no matter how hard they destroy you, that you can conquer anyone...
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"All that is gold does not glitter, Not all those who wander are lost; The old that is strong does not wither, Deep roots are not reached by the frost. From the ashes a fire shall be woken, A light from the shadows shall spring; Renewed shall be blade that was broken: The crown-less shall again be the King... P.S. Not my creation...
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Many people, other than the authors, contribute to the making of a book. From the first person who had the bright idea of alphabetic writing through the inventor of movable type to the lumberjacks who felled the trees that were pulped for its printing. It is not customary to acknowledge the trees themselves, though their commitment is total.
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What an astonishing thing a book is, It's flat object made from a tree with flexible parts on which are imprinted lots of funny, romantic and many more thoughts scribbled by the writer. But one glance at it and you're inside the mind of another person; a person who might have not born or existed or the person who died thousands of years ago. And then for years, an author connects to you and speaks to you in your head, directly to you. Writing is perhaps the greatest human inventions, binding together people who never know each other, citizens of distant epochs, lands and mindsets. Books break the shackles of time and it is a proof that humans are capable enough to create something extraordinary and magical. Happy World Books Day to you all. Write One, Read One, Share One and see how beautiful life is...
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A Paragraph from "The Other Side of the Bed" - A Novel by Bhavya Kaushik. Couldn't get this out of my head. What's your say on it. "When a wife loses her husband, they call her a widow. And when somebody's parents die, they call him an orphan. But there is no name for a parent, a grieving mother, or a devastated father who have lost their child. because the pain behind that loss is so unmeasurable and unbearable, that is cannot be described in one word. It just cannot be described. Every night, I ask myself-why him, and who not me? i was supposed to die first. Every night I cry myself to sleep," She added.
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Just another night A gloomy, gloomy night, Where your life became that sad song, And you've given up acting strong, As you stare at that familiar ceiling, And the tears roll down your face... Sticky and silently; Not bothering to wipe them away Tears that make no sense to you And have no reason to come... And when that night passes That gloomy, gloomy night, You're back again... With a store-bought smile, Plastered to your icy face, And a genuine and happy laugh, That never ever came...
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Its another sleepless night, laying here thinking about you. As I toss and turn, I lay here and wonder where you are. With my eyes wide open, looking up at the ceiling. I begin to wonder and hope that you might be thinking of me wherever you are. That you might miss me, as I am missing you. Praying that the good Lord will take mercy on us, and protect all those that we love. Wondering about our future, and our undying love. And loving and missing someone that's hundreds of miles away. All of these running through my mind, causing another sleepless night. Hoping one day everything will be fine and finally end all my sleepless nights. But until then its just another one of my sleepless nights, and missing you with all my might.
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What will it take, To make you see, And believe, I won't leave you, No matter what, I will tell you, Straight from my heart, I want a forever, With you, To hold you, When you're days are harsh, I'm telling you, Straight from my heart and soul, That I'll never leave you.
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"I am not here because of the motivational & emotional support of people close to me; they are few. I am here mainly because of the people who considered me nothing, who abandoned me at desperate times, cheated me and used me for their betterment. I thank them for teaching me what life is all about and making me believe that doesn't matter what life throws at you, you will always have the choice, no matter how impossible it sounds."
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Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets. So, love the people who treat you right and forget about the ones who don't. And believe that everything happens for a reason... If you get a chance - take it; if it changes your life - let it. Nobody said that it would be easy... They just promised it would be worth it....
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"Letting go is not an option. It's more of a need. Sometimes you just can't stick to memories & people you love. At some point of time you have to take the hard decision of letting all that go."
#New Road Taken
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“There are only so many times that you can utter ‘It does not hurt’ before it begins to hurt even more than the hurt. You become enlightened of the feeling of feeling hurt, which is worse, I am certain, than the existent hurt.”
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